...when i sing softly, slowly

I'm tired.
My knees have stopped working.
I'm not angry, just stressed.
Too much on my plate, only to be backed up by, "You can always say no."
When you're one of a small group of people who know how to do something, you can't just say no all the time.
Don't make it seem like my fault when I get hassled because a couple of my friends need help.
But then again, there's no point in talking about anything I have a problem with because it seems that having a problem with something is a problem.

I can't wait to graduate.
that way, I'm at least getting paid more than minimum to deal with petty bullshit.

sometimes it feels good to be treated like a dumb boy.
makes me feel better about enjoying design work so much.

fact: i seem to have a problem with expressing what i really want

i feel like this is going to be an excellent year.
leaving birmingham without saying bye is always fun, not even kidding.
i move in saturday with awesome roommates.
staying at the BAM house is on the list of greatest things imaginable right now. so much positive energy.
i have a whole room to organize now, and if you know how much i love organization, you know that i'm ecstatic.
i'm tired, and won't sleep well tonight, but i don't even care.
auburn at 10:00 tomorrow.
so it begins...

i don't care about the passing it on thing

7 RANDOM QUIRKS/FACTS ABOUT MYSELF

random medical fact: my parents were told i would die before i was 13 by my allergist...bitch

random fear : inbreds

random medical fact: prior to surgery, i was always extremely insecure about my sleep apnea. i'm still hesitant to sleep around other people, because i don't know if it's been fixed, i don't hear myself sleep

random consumer fact: i'm an excellent shopping buddy, though my own clothing would never suggest it

random personal fact: sometimes, i need to be smacked and told to shut up for speaking worrisome nonsense

random food fact: dunkin donuts is so much better than krispy kreme

random personal fact: moulin rouge makes me cry. i am a romantic, sue me.

today was the first time that i actually swam during an adult swim...
big day

this post is just a temporary emotional outlet, so most of you should probably just move on, because no one likes to hear that...


Things I do when it gets to be too much...
Draw
Write
Organize
Sketch tattoos
Get tattooed
Shave my head
Buy dumb things
Work
Eat icecream

Haven't been able to do any of this during the summer, aside from ice cream and working myself to death. Sadly, my ice cream was all eaten when I tore the freezers apart looking for it today.

I am overly emotional, and fully aware of it. Perhaps not overly emotional, I just keep them mostly to myself.
That is how I choose to be, because I don't want to risk hurting anyone or getting awkward responses that make people pull away. I don't tell people when they make me angry enough, because most of them won't understand. I don't tell people I love them enough, praying that they'll just know. Hoping that I don't just come off as a prick half the time.

I decided that it is better if I keep my emotions private, so that no one has a reason to complain, because emotions seem to be a problem these days. Eventually I might suck it up and tell people how I really feel, but I doubt it.

Monica, Becky, Stew, Will, Ash, and Tait, you are the best collective of people I have ever known. None of you have a clue how much I love you, and how much your friendship means to me. I won't go into details, because the details aren't as important as the facts.

I don't even know if I'm whining or not right now. Honestly, I don't give a damn <3
Thanks.

this summer has been nice, but i can't wait to have my own living space again. i can't get anything done, especially anything creative when there is nothing remotely close to MY OWN space. i'm okay for a couple of days, but after a month, it's just depressing having 2 people to hang out with within 2 and a half to 4 hours.
can't wait for class to start again.

i worked 10 hours overtime this period.
i've been hanging in the air so long, the ground feels werid.
i hurt like hell.
becky's wisdom teeth removal was a success.
this is been an excellent summer.
not even kidding.
<3

this weekend was most excellent

+ no traffic on the way home from work
- too dirty to hug becky when showing up at her house
+ shaving = big success
+ suckin on a chilli dog, outside the tastee freez (though i actually ordered a burger)
+ music and lyrics
- my right leg pretty much doesn't function properly
+ sharks teeth
- becky owned me
+ lowes
+ bracelet = finished
+ tribond is effin sweet
+ didn't have to drive home in a retarded sleepy state
+ owning at fooseball
- beans on the steak nachos (no me gusta el hiatal hernia or whatever i have)
+ shrek 3
+ becky reed = amazing

aside from being a cripple, excellent weekend

so...i don't really touch my lj anymore.
i think i'm quite okay with that.
things have been exceptionally wonderful lately.

oh, and i'm currently living in virginia?

so rendering is really the only thing stressing me out now, as far as the next several months go.
i'm upset that my friends will be 8 to a thousand hours away, but that is something i can't help.
i'm just glad that i finally found people in auburn that are worth being around, who don't want to drink every time you hang out.

I'm definately happy.

i'm moving to tampa for the summer in just over 2 weeks...anyone know of a place to live?
finding someone to rent for the summer at this point has been a tad difficult.

everything else is amazing

<3

just so everyone knows, this was the best birthday weekend ever.
the end.

just watched chip and dale: rescue rangers, tailspin, and goof troop.
excellent start to the birthday weekend.

i give the last 24 hours an A +

this week was wonderful.
usually i don't say enough...but i think i talk too much sometimes.

i have a habit of working myself to death.
i mostly do it so that i don't have to confront my actual feelings.
essentially, i live a double life. or rather, my life is split in half, and i am only living half of my life.
i'll take a few minutes to unload soon, i hope.
can't keep this up.
no good.

well, i'm slowly learning to talk again...